Batman's Diary
Personal blog that tends to be updated every four days with a picture of video in between each blog . Personal blog that tends to be updated every four days with a picture of video in between each blog .It has been ages since I last blog post but I have valid reasons.
Reason one: alot has been going on with my family and with universirty
Reason two: I lost inspiration to write a blog post
But that does not matter because I am back to inform you on my life, which for some reason you like to read.
So recently in my life:
I left you on the note that my cousin, Jamie, had passed away. Well I attended the funeral and it was the biggest shock I have ever had. Not only was this the moment when I learnt Jamie is gone he is not coming back but I learnt that Jamie could be anyone but he is 21 years old. From this I have turned around and thought I am 20. For Jamie he only had one year left, he would not waste anytime so I am decided that from then I would learn to appreciate my life and try not to waste it.
Although life is life I will get the odd day which is not the best but I am learning why should I spend time with people who don’t care about me or I don’t like that much. I am learning to be more mature but at the same time making sure I am enjoying living. I want everyone to be like this but that is your decision but if you were to pass away next week will you hold the same grunges you have right now?
Another thing I decided from Jamie’s funeral was to support Cancer Research and any supporting organisations. I have purchased a Teenage Cancer Trust pin but I wanted an overall cancer research one but they don’t do one, maybe one day they will. I also decided to give something, this is connected with university life but I will get back to that, so I went through everything I had. This is from books, dvds, clothes, random pieces of decorating and gave it to a cancer research charity shop. I did such a good job that I ended up giving two big black bags. I have also put a £1 in every cancer research box I see, so far it is two but there aren’t many around, which I found shocking. So if you want to support a charity please choice Cancer Research because it is an illness which is evil. To witness people go through it is heart breaking and I can not imagine what it is like for the individal.
I am also hoping that after university I will be able to do a run of some sort to raise money for cancer research in the name of Jamie and my Nan, who passed away from cancer 4 years ago.
Anyway moving away from that I have finished university. Deadlines were stressful and I have now moved back to Bristol for the summer and I am so happy I am back home. I really was not enjoying university towards the end of second year and I am so happy here. This is my home. I really hope the summer does not fly by because I don’t really want to go back at the moment, but it is my last year it will be interesting.
Since I have been back I have seen Carly and Chloe which is lovey. Saw the Dictator, it was okay it is film you only go and see once. Been doing some shopping and got a great bargain, I got a £45 shop in the Body Shop for £21. This was because I went to the outlet in Street but I has so happy about that.
That is all I can really remember for the moment, hopefully will be blogging more regularly now. And it is nice to be back and I hope you all enjoy the lovely weather we have at the moment.
I fell for one of those when I was younger, too wise for that now :)
This week, on One Born Every Minute …
Click to see the finale of the Super Amazing Project, Season 2 </3 XDGIFs requested by the lovely Robyn.
Normally I don’t post GIFs on my blog but I am really happy that I requested it :)
Hilarious moment.
Ummm, I feel like I should not write this but I need to express what I am thinking in some form.
Yesterday, 30th April 2012, my older cousin Jamie passed away due to cancer.
He was 21 and had been battling for only just under a year.
I had not and have not come around to the thought of what he has been through and in my head and heart I still believe he is still on earth with us. I still believe that he is okay and he will get over this and get married and have children and all that stuff. I still believe that still have an older cousin that I can look up to and learn things from and just have a good chats with at family occasions, to keep thing ‘this is the normal person on my dads side’.
But that fact is he is not. He is no longer here and I can not get used to this fact.
I no longer have 10 cousins I have 9, but in my heart it will always be 10.
I hate that fact I am now seen as the oldest grandchild on both sides of my family. I hate I am the older one and I dont want to be.
I am upset but this is not the beginning for me because I know I do not truly believe yet that he is gone.
I didn’t see him since August 2011 and I hate that fact but it is not that I choose it to be that way. I wanted to see him. I have taken him for granted and he is now teaching me a lesson.
He was young and I want to learn from this, not to hang around waiting for things because you have no idea when you will run out of time.
I just want to end this saying I love my family so much and I really really hope that they know that.
This goes to all living members and the ones who have been taken away. I will never forget my Nan and my Aunt Janet and now Jamie.
We will always miss him and I will always remember growing up with my older cousin.
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Oh dear, look at me. I have been the worst blogger at the moment. So UPDATE TIME!
Well as you know I am back in Preston. And oh my days, it has been an odd time (is that right?!). Lets start with the fact that right this very moment I should be asleep, as it is 3am. However my sleeping pattern, as usual, is out of whack. So really I should be doing work but I am lacking in motivation and I have 4 deadlines, two of them are due in three days time and the other two I don’t know when. But lets just say I have done about 350 words in all assessments when it should be 12,500 words in total.
Oh kill me now!
Don’t know how I am going to manage third year. SOMEONE SEND ME MOTIVATION!
Apart from all the boring university work that needs to be done the week just past has been a birthday week. It was Brim’s birthday over the easter holidays but went out on Tuesday to celebrate since everyone was back. It was alright, was nice to talk to some of the people. Went home early though. Here is a lovely picture from that night:
Then Saturday was my flatmates, Ashley, 20th birthday. That was a good day, got up late and we, we being me, Ashley, Ami, Steph and Rach, went to have a Chinese. It was super duper yummy, the best I have ever had. The thought of it right now makes me want some, nommmmmmmmmmmmmmm. So yeah, did that had a few laughs then we went out. Never really been out on a Saturday but OMG it was packed everywhere, no students though its was … well just say ‘older’ people. But it was a good night out, went to like four different places and only spent £16. The only benefit of living in North England, cheap night outs! It was a themed night so we had to be ‘tough guys and girls’ I failed at this but I didn’t really want to dress up but here is a picture anyway:
So yeah, it has been an odd week. Now it has to be all work and no fun. Will be going back home for the summer earlier then expected so just got to look forward to that.
Hope things are good with you and your not crammed with work like I am.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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Well that is it for me. My Easter holidays are finished and it is time for me to get on a train and head back to Preston. The only thing is … Do I have to go?
I have had an amazing time at home. As predicted I did have a few spats with my mother (and some with my younger sister - aka, the hormones). Although that did not bring a downer to my break. I got to see and spend time with every single person I wanted to give my time too.
I got to spend time with my Dad, which I have not had in a long time. We went next door to sort out my Grandpa’s lawn for him, so that was 4 hours of hard work and just talking with my Dad, it was lovely. I also got to spend time with my Grandpa too, which I always love and make sure I treasure those moments because I know one day I will have to say goodbye. I hope this is not soon *touches wood* as I love him to pieces. Got to have some wonderful home cooked meals made by my mother so me, my sister, mum, dad and grandpa got to have our usual banter at the table. It is one of the main things I come home for.
I got to see all the people I really wanted to see, I have had some lovely days with every single one and to be honest it was not enough time. I now know that I may have a few friends at home but they are rocks they know everything about me and they take me for who I am. They know about my nerdy-ness, my OCD with organizing things around time and quite honest I am blessed to know people who accept me for me.
So yeah, I have had the best time ever and now I have to go back to university which I do not want to do now. I started organizing my volunteer stuff at home and my bed is comfy and I have company that I can be 100% myself with. I am not saying I dislike university because that is not true at all, I am looking forward to seeing most people but I am scared of the loneliness I was in just before I left. I really do not want to return to that because right now I feel happy, inspired and motivated. I just do not want to get knocked down again.
But they do say ‘home is where the heart is’, they sure are right.
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Did you know every time I write a blog post I have to put on my iTunes and listen to something I love. Today I just bought the HelloGoodbye album and obviously the first track I put on is ‘when we first met’. That is a nice fact for you lot :)
I apologize for this blog post but this topic or thing has got me thinking. Making me wonder if I am the only one.
So currently in my life, Easter holidays are underway. My flatmate Steph went home on Friday leaving me in the flat with my two other flatmates. I thought this would be fine. I have alot of work to do and I knew I would not see the other two that much but I underestimated that fact. I have basically been on my own the moment Steph left home. I like my own time but this takes the biscuit and I hate it.
It is not just Steph who has gone home, alot of people I know have also gone back too. But I feel forgotten. My other flatmates are always out and when they are in they are in their rooms or asleep. Anyone else had this problem before?
For company I have been talking to myself, texting everyone I know from home sorting out plans for when I am back, dancing like a madwoman in my room, going to shop to see a human and watching too much television. All in all it has been a very lonely time and has got me scared for the future, will it just be like this? I have always been the single one and I need to lose some weight before guys I am interested become interested in me (yes, it sounds stupid and ‘people should like you for you’ but I know what my experiences are and I know what to do). To be honest this isn’t a ‘I am single rant’ but I just kinda ingored the fact my mother warned me about. The fact was when people get older, get into more serious relationships and they start careers, they have less time therefore you see less of them. It is a sad fact of life but it really is a true one.
I know I have not helped myself I have destroyed relationships and I don’t have the largest number of friends but I like to think the ones I have a incredible. I am not saying they arn’t some are but at the moment with my location being Preston and knowing two people here who barely see me due to their own lives, I am not enjoying myself.
BUT …
the good new is: I AM GOING HOME TODAY!!!!!!
Yes, today is the day I go home back to Bristol and I am so excited. My train does not leave for another 9/8 hours but I am so excited. I can’t wait to see my family and have some company, even if it just sitting in the living room with my Dad watching a programme I didn’t choose but there is nothing I would rather do. I won’t see my friends much but they told me their reasons and I am happy that I know so I am prepared. I am sure I will have a great time at home, even if I do argue with my mother now and again :)
It just nice to know that no matter how crap things get at university I have a home where I am loved and my parents will always be there for me. I love them and they are not perfect but I would not change them for the world, I am thankful that I appreciate them at my age when I have so much time left to show them this.
So if you take anything from this blog post just remember people can make you feel like your world is not worth working hard for but your parents, family or just someone out there loves you. Please remember that.
So yeah, that is me. I would love to know what you think so comment away.
Hope you have a lovely Easter/Spring break.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
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Yesterday was a week until I go home. Not only am I happy by this fact because I am living off less than £30 but I get some super yummy home cooked meals. I also miss my comfy bed and a good sofa to sit on but most of all I am too excited to see my friends.
So yeah, that is good. However I was panicking over deadlines as I have done such a small amount of work luckily I have had 2 extensions which has helped me out so not panicking as much but I still need to collect sources to take home with me.
Fun times ahead for me in the next few days.
Like everyone else I have been enjoying the sun. Did not catch it but went down to the park again yesterday and read some of the Hunger Games and it was so relaxing. I just hope the weather in Bristol is also good so I can do the same thing there.
Apart from that there is not much to inform you on, life is on a stand still at the moment and I am enjoying that fact.
Hope you enjoy the build up to the Easter holidays or if you are already on them, GO CRAZY!
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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I had such an amazing day today!
The sun was shining in Preston, for once, and we all decided to actually go outside the flat and enjoy it.
The night before Steph and Ami had gone out for a few drinks and well we shall say ‘they got merry’. Steph was hungover and Ami had not even gone to sleep yet so it was like walking with Zombies. So we started off in Wetherspoons, to meet Brim and have a bit of lunch - aka feed the hangovers and a chance for me to have some Thatchers (I miss that stuff). Then we headed off to meet Rach and co. in Avenham park.
I have never been to Avenham Park before and Preston hides it well. It seemed a but more normal to my liking. There was normal-ish people there and it kinda reminded me and being back in Bristol. It was such a nice day. We played some badminton and basically attempted to get rid of our paleness.This was achieved by the majority of us, me not being one of them. But it was nice to sitting and chatting to everyone since we have not really had the chance because of university work. Oh and taking a few pictures. Here is one of me and Rach:
Did gain a blister too from new summer shoes but that was just the worst part of the day. The day ended with us going to Assembly (pub) and having a few drinks while the sun started to set and we left when it got a bit too chilly for our liking.
It was just a brilliant day, best day I have had in a while. I hope that we have many more to come.
Hope you all enjoyed the sunshine if not hopefully you will soon.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
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